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Shit, so... you don't know anything? Whoever you used to be is basically just... just gone?

[It's rough, having to be Jack. But at the end of the day, he can still try to hold on to who he used to be. He can do his best to hold on to Timothy Lawrence.

If he didn't have that... Fuck, who knows how he would've ended up. He can't imagine it.]

There's no way to... I don't know, reverse that, somehow? Maybe get your memories back...?

About my past? No. I have flashbacks during my sleep sometimes but they're like contorted images. Nothing else.

[He was Big Boss and not the medic he used to be.]

I can't reverse it, since I have men under my command and a base to run. This is who I am now and for the sake of everything back home I'm going to keep it.

[He didn't have much option in getting the person he used to be back. If he asked Ocelot to reverse the hypnotism he'd refuse, since Diamond Dogs needed this man to be Big Boss. Snake couldn't be anyone else.]

I'm more than just a man. I'm a name. A legend. If I undid it all for the sake of myself then I'd be jeopardising my base and the men who served under me.

I... Well, I mean, I guess if that's how you wanna roll, that's your call. Can't imagine it myself, but... well, our circumstances are pretty different.

[Timothy would reverse what happened to him in a heartbeat, but he can't, no matter how much he wants it. Not unless he wants to die, anyway.]

And there's no afterwards or something? I mean, I dunno what the situation here really is, but... You're not gonna be running that base forever, right?

If you wanted to become the man you used to do you think Jack would let you?

[Snake had to know if the guy would be decent enough to allow Tim to have his life back. Surely, the body double thing wouldn't last his entire lifetime, would it? That wouldn't bare thinking about if Tim had to pretend to be Jack until the real Jack died. That would just be a pile of bullshit.]

Jack seems an OK kind of guy from what I know so far. Wouldn't believe he'd condone you to this forever.

[At the question regarding Snake's life he just sighed.]

I'll run Diamond Dogs until I'm not needed anymore. Until we've completed what we set out to do. What I was created to do. [He had to.]

Well, I'm under contract for a while, but uh... that does eventually expire.

[That's not a yes. Or a no. But technically still an answer and not avoiding it entirely.]

...Sure. Yeah. Jack's great.

[Doesn't matter that this is private. Doesn't matter that Snake said he won't tell Jack any of this. Timothy isn't gonna risk saying anything really bad about Jack. Not to someone who might actually talk to him.]

Right, okay, sure. And then what? Or are you just kinda, I dunno, winging it? See where you end up before you decide?

[Eventually expire....those were the words Snake hoped he would hear. Otherwise, Tim had not much of a life outside of being Jack's body double, basically condemning the man to live a life not his own. He'd be a prisoner to Jack.]

Right. Thought Jack wouldn't sentence you to a life of cruelty. [Because it was? Being forced into something then forced to live with it for the rest of your life? Pretty fucking cruel to Snake.]

He's a guy who enjoys money, power and drugs from what I have known of him so far.

[Money, fame, power also? Yet, the drugs and money have played a big part, since Jack agreed to get high on berries with Snake.]

You could say that. I have to complete my mission and make sure Diamond Dogs is safe from threats before doing anything else. Who knows? I might live long enough to see the end.

[He chuckled to himself. Yeah, he was half-joking about dying, since his life was on a knife edge right now being who he was. A fugitive. A double of the real Big Boss; the man everyone wanted dead.]

Edited 2016-08-23 16:37 (UTC)

["Yeah, that's cause you don't really know what Jack's like" almost slips out. Almost. Not to mention, well, Jack clearly wouldn't see it as cruel. Because he's Jack.]

Yep, you just about got it there. I mean, the drugs part didn't exactly come up a lot, but that sounds like him.

Jack's very... ambitious.

[It's one word to describe a power-hungry psychopath, anyway.]

Geez, you sound so easygoing about that. Uh. Well. Here's hoping you do make it that long?

He seems like a guy who won't stop until he gets what he wants.

[Overly ambitious? That wasn't altogether a bad thing, right? A man could have dreams and goals but pursuing them through dark and evil means? No, that was wrong.]

I'm not easy going, just a man doing a job. Sometimes life throws shit at you and you just have to deal. [Which he's doing at the moment.]

If you ever do get your life back what will you do?

That's accurate. He's... driven. Doesn't give up. It's how he went from being just a programmer to running Hyperion. Not to mention finding a freaking vault...

[Anyone who gets involved with vaults is overly ambitious by definition.]

I guess so. Seems you're good at dealing.

[That question, though... He actually freezes up.]

I... uh... [If he somehow gets it back, what would he...] Well, I'd...

[...]

...I don't know.

[Driven. Yeah. Snake guessed it would be that way. He half bordered on psychotic the way he spoke about certain subjects but he wasn't about to judge Jack that harshly.]

I have to. It's just my job to deal with any situation being a soldier.

[Even dealing with being someone else now. Not knowing who the hell you were before you were made into another guy. Confusing as fuck.]

Have you got any family back home? Kids?

Don't think I'll ever get soldiers, but... sounds about the same as some of the others I've met.

[He pauses again at that question.]

No kids or anything. Just... Just my mom, really. And she... [...] Well, she thinks I'm dead, so uh. Can't exactly just go back there.

[Snake wasn't just any ordinary soldier, being a clone of Big Boss.]

Sorry to hear that. It must be rough with not much to go back to. You could re-build your past life? Start anew? Be a new man without the constraints of Jack to hold you down.

[Optimist? Came with wanting to see an end to conflict in the world. Something that will probably never happen as long as the human race continues to dominate the planet, yet Snake felt for this guy.]

[Tim's more of a pessimist, so he kind of doubts that's gonna happen.]

Yeah... maybe. Just gotta wait and see. All I know is I'm gonna get far away from Pandora and Hyperion. I dunno, go back to Eden maybe. Or... some other star system a little further away.

[Any planet where people don't shoot first and ask questions never.]

Assuming I'm not here anymore, of course.

Yeah. It seems no one can get out of this place on their own accord. I'm wondering if anyone has been brought back to their own world. Allowed to go free at will.

[It was an interesting question that was no bugging Snake somewhat.]

I know this sounds crazy but do you think there's someone running this place? Looking after all these Pokémon and making us play their elaborate game?

Not a clue. I know some people have been here for years by now, though...

[There's worse places to be. Of course, as long as Jack's here, there are also many, many better places.]

I don't know. Way I hear it there's this super powerful Pokemon controlling things, but uh... who knows exactly how legit that is.

What kind of super powerful Pokémon are we talking about here?

[Because that didn't sound good at all.]

Hell if I know, I only know super vague stuff myself. Might wanna ask someone who's been here longer.

[Snake nodded. It seemed Jack's double didn't know much about it either. Maybe it was meant to be a mystery?]

Yeah. Asking around might wield some answers. Once I find out I'll let you know.

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